Current Muses

Coco Chanel
Lady Gaga
Erik Satie
cigarettes
the mediterranean
wine

it's scary how much music impacts my mood. On weekends when I am not surrounded by continuous sounds of singing, bowing, scales, vocalizing, trumpets in minor 2nds etc. i feel dead and as if walking in shadows. But when when I'm in rehearsals, practicing, singing, trying to act or operaing, I'm happy, full of excitement. I feel like I am myself. it's scary how much my mood changes, how much I change when I'm home versus when I'm at school. Home reminds me of reality, bills, tensions, money, politics; but at school its music, youtube videos comparing violinists, scales, laughter, acting as if in love, acting as if in anger, singing. AH!!! Singing! its so therapeutic to my soul, i had no idea before.

i want to keep singing, I want to disappear into opera, into fantasy, into wonderfulness.